Inspiration

I often struggle when I write. Show me a writer or artist that doesn’t and I’ll show

you a miracle in the flesh! Sometimes I am blessed with writing prompts but more often

than not, I must come up with something that speaks to me to write about and let it

develop into a piece I deem worthy of sharing. Many times, I’ll write something and get

to a point and just decide, “Nah, that’s not what I want to say.” Or the message isn’t as

clear as I need it to be and I scrap it and start all over again. This has been my

challenge the last few months. I am a deadline oriented writer and tend to work better

under pressure for the most part. The tighter the deadline, the better the piece, which

can be good or bad depending on who you ask. In many ways, writing is my voice so

to speak. I am known for my actual voice being very engaging and I’ve often been told

that one could listen to me “reading the phone book” and be enthralled. Lately, I have

been struggling with the longest case of laryngitis in history, like I’m pretty sure at this

point I’m going for some sort of record! 10 weeks and counting with no voice above

that of a loud whisper. So when I struggle to write AND I can’t speak it becomes my

worst nightmare. Right now, when I write to share my voice, it is LITERALLY how I am

sharing my voice. I’m sure you can understand the level of frustration I’m feeling when

someone says, “Why don’t you have your voice back yet?” And I have to reply, “I don’t

know.” My Mom joked that perhaps God was telling me to be quiet and listen. Well,

that’s possible. A dear friend suggested that perhaps it was deeper than something

medical and it could be my energy was blocked and I needed to release my Throat

Chakra. Could be that, too. I believe it’s quite possibly a combination of these things

and perhaps my voice will return when I’m inspired with something worthwhile to say.